Parliament & politics geek | Currently in treatment recovering from mental illness/ BPD | Hearing & sight impaired (Usher Syndrome) | Dog lover | She/Her
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The hardest lesson I have learned is that the only person who can make me better mentally is me.
I can’t do it on my own. I’ve needed help from a whole host of nurses, doctors, therapists, support workers, family & friends. & I’m lucky that I’ve had these.
& maybe 🧵
Through that, I feel heard & understood by someone who is choosing to get it & me. That’s validation of my
pain itself & so I rarely escalate to crisis involving emergency services etc.
These revelations are motivating me, I know what I want now. (Most of the time).
❤️
For my leaving activity at the Cassel I decided to have a water fight 😂
It was so bloody fun. Here’s the nurse manager drenching me 😂
This kind of psycho- social nursing works. My relationship with the nurses is real, I’m not just seeking care, I care about them too (1/3)
ALT Shows a lady throwing a bucket of water over me (the picture snaps me jumping and squealing as the water lands all over me!). At the same time I am firing a water gun at her and she is grimacing as the water hits her face 😂
This has transformed how I think about behaving destructively & eliciting care.
Because they care, i’ve learned that if I communicate how I’m feeling my needs will be met. I don’t need to harm myself & I don’t want to because I don’t want to distress people I care about. (2/3)
I only have 10 days left at the Cassel (exc weekends) 🥹
A big part of me is ready to move on to life beyond inpatient mental health treatment. But despite how hard it’s been, this is the first place I’ve felt genuinely seen & I’m going to miss the connections I’ve made so much.
I have 3 wks left at Cassel Hospital until I complete the 9 month inpatient treatment programme.
It’s been bloody hard, inconceivably so. But I’ve learned to understand my mental health, take responsibility for the behaviours it brings & I think I’m a better person for it.
Sorry I haven’t updated since I left the acute ward a few wks ago.
I went home with some brilliant crisis/ home treatment. I then returned to the Cassel 2 wks ago. I’m back at it, doing the work, with a new confidence I can get through crises like that without harming myself 💪
Don’t think I read this until I’d had proper psycho - analytic treatment. My therapist does not appease or comfort me, she doesn’t give advice. Instead she pushes me to reflect, understand, gain insight - into sometimes painful & difficult behaviours & thought patterns.
