The hardest thing about 🔒 in was the self centered obsession about what was next for me. It has been a pathway I never thought possible. But I made the changes, for me. I look out at the next months filled with scheduled classes and open appointments to come. I didn't want to give up, or quit here however it was obvious my influence just wasn't reaching the crowd. What was I really talking about anyway? I could justify it, this log speaks for itself I was there gathering the information looking for the movement that made the most sense. I'm far from anything but I finally find myself coming up for air because everything, needs time to process. While I'm happy for the break Im also ready I feel like I've just been that mountain climber thats been shopping gear planning the route and has taken 100 walks up the mountain in my mind. But here's the secret I know. This is the beauty in the broken glass moment. I'm going to show myself what it sounds like. I am going to be so Golden within this opportunity that when it hits you what I've completed I'll be near atop my mountain talking with my savior. Seek him, he is in everything, and everything is good. You just have to be willing to find the time. He, loves you and if your reading this it's your sign to send up a line. You are forgiven, if you start with this one line. Like your talking to a friend. Hey it's been a while...

For something a little different I will share a Sunday prayer. One week ago, out in the blind with my dad and brother at sunrise, I wrote: "The sun did in fact still wake in the morning, I reawakened my spirit… Each day is stronger!" I didn’t know then how true those words would become. This week, the Light I’d almost stopped looking for found me. I laid down a weight I was never meant to carry alone. I came home to the God who never stopped searching for me. Forgive me, Lord, for the years I hid. Thank You for the dawn that keeps coming, for family, for fields, for every mercy that led me back. I’m not just surviving the days anymore. I’m alive in them. Each day is stronger—because He is stronger in me. He spoke to me in ways I finally understood though it means something different to everyone, a shared poem "The dark night of the soul" and the "song of songs." Today, I feel the light again. After years of carrying a weight that was never truly mine to bear alone, I finally set it down—not out of hardness, but because my own soul was dimming under it. I’m sorry for the ways that letting go was leaving. I’m asking forgiveness from God, from myself, and from anyone I hurt in the process. But grace found me in the quiet. The dark night broke into dawn, and I heard the voice I’d almost stopped listening for: ‘Come back to Me. I’ve been searching for you.’ So here I am—running home, lighter, humbled, rejoicing. The Lover of my soul never stopped pursuing. And for the first time in a long while, I’m not hiding anymore. Thank You, Lord, for new beginnings. Thank You for carrying what I couldn’t. Thank You for calling me back to life. Daniel 10:19 Amen.

What Cafe?! Is there ice cream there? Few will understand this joke.

Gonna be golden! – at California, USA

A quote I wanted to share that has recently inspired me. "I think; therefore I am" -Descartes Pause for a second and focus on "I" Fill your page with that is you, affirm to yourself the things you are. Simply start with one word following, I am: Smart, kind, and compassionate. I can Love: myself, my mask is on tightly so I can breathe one breath in two breaths out for three seconds to think upon what I will. "Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven." You were granted a gift of will to love and follow A greater plan. You create your peace, your prosperity, your humble accord creating your pathway forward. So why are you not creating the heavens? I am.

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