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I’m not used to posting things like this, but I want to be a bit more transparent. These past few weeks I’ve been way less active, and honestly, May has probably been my worst month in trading — not performance-wise, but mentally. I’ve never really struggled with psychology before, but since moving into futures, I slowly started treating it like a game without even realizing it. And it’s starting to cost me a lot. I’ve been losing more accounts, revenge trading — things I never used to do. Thinking in ways I never did before. On top of that, I’m finishing my studies right now, so my mind is constantly overloaded and trying to manage everything at once has been harder than expected. Even stupid little mistakes keep piling up. Like forgetting to close a position on Friday night and losing another account because of it. Small details, but they slowly drag you deeper. I’ve been thinking a lot about stopping futures completely. But at the same time, I know the opportunities it could bring me are huge. I think what I really need is a new environment and to get myself back under control — and thankfully that change is coming soon. Things are complicated right now, but I wanted to show some transparency because the journey is not always pretty. Still, deep down, I know this is my lowest point. And I truly believe that once I get through this phase, better days will come. I know I’ll make it. And once I overcome this version of myself, I’ll be unstoppable.

The funded account is up $650. Hopefully, we’ll see a payout next week

Nice way to finish the week. Perfect trade from yesterday

Couldn’t trade today. It was a perfect day, but I wasn’t available. I’m so mad, but it is what it is

$NQ +2R Took a loss before this one

$NQ +2.5R Nice TP yesterday after a brutal BE on ES. The funded account is up $300

$NQ Took a small TP today with very little risk because of the news. The week has been pretty quiet so far

Forgot to post this one. It’s been a week, but at least now you can see it 🫶🏼 @TradingLucid

$NQ BE day again 1SL and 1 partial

$NQ BE Missed my first entry, got stopped out at BE, and then missed the short afterward. Better than taking a loss. Tomorrow will be better

Took a loss on my first trade because I wasn’t aligned with the right bias. I’ll post the recap tomorrow

$NQ +3R Missed the short because the market was too volatile, but caught this long and funded the account with @TradingLucid

Finally 🤝

Didn’t get triggered but wtf is that

$NQ +1.5R Took one beautiful TP and then one SL. I should have finished my day after the TP. I'm thinking about setting a rule that makes me stop trading after hitting a TP

Do you have a platform to connect all your futures accounts together?

$NQ -2R Took two big losses today—part of the game. My account is still in the green, so we'll see how the rest of the week goes.

$NQ 1 BE 1 Partial +2R Missed the final TP again by 1 tick, I’m starting to think someone has jinxed me 😂. We’ll see how things go in the next few days, hopefully it goes better

Again and again 😂 Missed my TP by 1 tick again but took some profit because I’m tired of making the same day

Finished the week with a small loss. I totally forgot it was a bank holiday, and I definitely felt it. Still, I had a positive week overall despite coming within a few ticks of my take-profit three times. It's frustrating, but next week will be better