drakku is gone.

The more I'm hearing about the absolute shit-show that #BeastGames ended up being, the more I'm glad I wasn't chosen. I had a casting agent reach out to me to tell me to apply, I made it through medical checks and background checks, but not a word in the end. (Thank goodness. 🙃)

I miss streaming campaigns. If anyone has a Monday night adventure coming up, I can definitely make that work with my schedule, please cast me or tell me where to audition, I miss ya'll. 🥹

Just got back from Civil War and it wasn't the movie I thought it was going to be. Instead, it was a really great take on wartime journalists and PTSD. PLEASE be in a good headspace if you go. I wasn't, so now it's self care time for the rest of my waking hours.

Not me screaming "I CAN FIX HIM" when @livinaday calls me out for romancing Astarion.

Watching Better Call Saul for the first time and literally on the verge of tears with poor little Irene. 😭

Allergies are horrendous, so I took my SUPER strong antihistamine that's usually reserved for breakthrough migraines. Friends..... it isn't working. 😭

Has anyone ever played videos of gymnasts doing incredible flips and tricks to dolphins? They must think we're terribly boring in the water, that would sure show them otherwise. I wonder what a dolphin would think of that.

So that time I ended up in the ER for the worst part of a seven day cluster headache just finally got processed by my insurance. The bill was originally over $8k for the doctor to tell me to alternate acetaminophen and ibuprofen, at over-the-counter strength.

Just recertified my ACLS and PALS and I was the lowest trained individual in the room and I felt like a BIG dumb. But I passed! So that's done for another 2 years.

I didn't post it during the actual day, but I thought of this in the morning and had been whispering it to myself: "I don't know about thee, but I just turned thirty-three." 💙

Not me systematically sniffing each cat's mouth to try to determine who nibbled on the chocolates. I'm mentally stable. Usually.

If I could have just a SLIVER of the self-confidence that the small child popping, locking, AND dropping it in front of the Bath & Body Works had, I would be set for life.

As a belated Valentine's thing, here's my cardiologist and I looking at an ultrasound of my heart. Cool! And on theme!

I had one good day, but the migraine/cluster headache is coming back. So here's day eight of debilitating pain, dizziness, and nausea. But hey, big thanks to the ER for the OTC meds. Cuz y'know, never thought to try ibuprofen before in my 18 years of dealing with this.

TIL I was diagnosed on the autistic spectrum as a child and *nobody ever told me.* My mom just casually dropped that tidbit in conversation today. So now toddler-me pretending I was a cat for 2yrs and not talking was not an endearing quirk, it was my nonverbal, autistic ass. 🙃

NOT SEASON 1 OF NEW AMSTERDAM ENDING ON AN ABSOLUTE BRUTAL NOTE AHHHHH

Been watching that Junji Ito 'Maniac' series on Netflix, and now I really want a creepy Junji Ito tattoo again. Teenage me would be proud.

Also, I'm wearing a heart monitor for two weeks, and I'm pretty sure Gil has already activated it twice because he is VERY determined to sleep on my chest again. Did I mention that he kicked me in the throat last night with all nine pounds? This cat.... he's lucky he's cute.

Scratch test results show that I'm allergic to everything. This is not an exaggeration. So I'll be starting allergy drops in a couple weeks. All I have to say is, can you imagine how unstoppable I'll become when I'm not constantly in an allergen brainfog? Ya'll better watch out.