Heavenly Father
My heart is heavy. I stayed on in darkness too long. I ignored my discernment and intuition to follow the great Deceiver. I allowed the Devil to take hold of my life. He had my spirit in a chokehold. I repent. I surrender to your will. I humbly accept your direction. I pray to learn to love again through Christ. In His name I pray.
Amen 🙏
Every time I start to feel sorry for myself, I go to an online AA meeting and it reminds me how much I have to be grateful for.
When I had the vision that led to the model that no one wants me to pursue further, I was pure light. Pure. Light. And now??? I'm stuck here in the meat prison.
I feel like Buffy when they pulled her out of heaven.
I'm sorry for who I was when I was experiencing intense trauma complicated by cancer and cannabis psychosis 😔
Heavenly Father
I am so grateful that you saw something worth saving in me even when I saw nothing in myself. Thank you for the breath in my body. Thank you even for the pain, for I know that through it I am made stronger in Spirit. I pray for you to relieve me of unhealthy energies, whether they arise within or from outside that I may do your will more effectively. I also pray you do the same for all. In Jesus's name. Amen 🙏
To those who were the recipients of my misappropriation of hurt: you have my deepest apologies. There were a cascade of awful and illegal things that happened all at once, and I didn't know everyone involved. There were some people I genuinely believed were involved that may not have been.
To those that are actually guilty, I forgive you and pray for you. I will still sue you when I can without amends. That is all.
