MICRO PREEMIE MOM 💜 Full-time Streamer on Twitch 💜 ✝ Psalm 46:5, God is within her, she will not fall ✝ Home Chef 👩🍳 Animal Rescuer 🐶 Gamer Girl 🎮
Louisiana, USA
Joined August 2016
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Literally word for word of the last 5 years of my life. Just add also having a 3 month premature babygirl, that was in the NICU 95 days fighting for her life, my dad, step mom & bestfriend of 17 years all dying. And taking care of my bed written disabled mom. I died inside.🙂
I was the girl who stayed through the no job, no money, no gifts, no dates and the times when he had nothing to offer but himself. I could have left. I could have chosen an easier kind of love, but I stayed because I believed in him, believed in us and believed that one day things would get better. I never needed him to have everything figured out. I just wanted to build something meaningful together. I wanted my loyalty to mean something, to know that when life finally got better for him, he would remember the girl who stood beside him when it didn’t. Maybe that’s what hurts the most. I wasn’t asking for a perfect man or a perfect life. I was willing to grow with him, struggle with him and love him through seasons when we had very little. I just never imagined that after giving so much of my heart, I would be the one left trying to put it back together. I didn’t leave when he had nothing. I stayed because I believed in what we could become. And it breaks my heart that the love I was willing to build from the ground up still ended up destroying me.
Listen, if you have a @Whataburger near you, YOU HAVE TO GO TRY their new White chocolate Raspberry Shake. 🤤🤤 It should be a crime to make something so delicious, I JUST finally hit my weight loss goal after 5 years of busting my ass & I'm about to risk it all for the shake 🤣
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6 years ago I weighed in at 310lbs.
& I don't told myself, ENOUGH. I deserve better for myself. I was done being unhealthy & disgusted by who I seen in the mirror. I set a goal I NEVER thought I'd be able to achieve, that I wanted to be 150lbs. I never stopped. I gained 65lbs back, pregnancy & post partum was extremely hard on my body, but I refused to give up. I was determined.
Today I weigh in at 154LBs 🥲 I fucking did It.
Imagine having to contact law enforcement, to be able to get Access to your freezer that has you and your 2 year olds food in it, because the only family you have left, and the family you've dedicated your entire life to take care of for the last 18 years, decided to be evil, just because they can, and change the lock on the shop that you both share, whichhas my deep freezer inside, plus all my disabled childs medical/breathing equipment, stroller, play pen, etc. and is refusing to give me a key. 🤬 no warning, no nothing. Just to be a heartless, prick, & make life even more difficult for me, when I'm already going through the worst days of my life.
😡 I'm so unbelievably tired of this shit. I can't wait to get FAR away from these narcissistic, manipulative, demons. Very unfortunate that we can't choose who we're related to, or who our parents are. Really miss my dad & step mom more than ever lately. 😔💔 I miss having a parent that genuinely loved and cared and worried about me and Rylee. I would also give anything just to get s hug from my bestfriend right now, but unfortunately God had to call her home as well. My heart hurts so bad man.. life isn't fair, at all. 😔
Holy shit. I was NOT expecting this much love & support, I literally can't even respond to everyone. I was going through a really dark, heavy, just absolutely dog shit day. I suffer with severe depression, & I'm dealing with alot of grief after just recently losing my dad, step mom, & best friend. -- the financial struggle is literally taking everything out of me, as I'm sure it is everyone. Times are just very hard, and I feel completely alone. I just want to let you all know how thankful I am, I didnt post this for attention, especially at this number, I just needed to vent, so I opened X and just typed how I felt in that moment after having to drive 4MPH home cause I was on a flat, & my brain new air pump caught on fire. First time using it, smh. Was the cherry untop an extremely bad day. Stupid cracked rim 🥺 anyways, thank you all... seriously. You all brought so much light on during a very, very dark time. To every person who was rude AF for literally no reason, I hope you never suffer with depression, or losing everyone you love, after just having a Micro Premiee baby, who spent 95 days in the NICU. I don't wish what I've gone through these last few years on anyone. Be thankful you don't have depression, anxiety, OCD. & Being that you don't know ehat it's like, maybe it's best to simply STFU if u have nothing nice to say. Because anyone who suffers with their mental health, knows how hard it is, just to survive the next 5 minutes. And they would never try to kick someone when they're already down. And to the idiot trying to contact the FBI, saying I'm going to murder my fucking baby. ????? Are you kidding me? You should of be blown down your mother's throat, but we all make mistakes. Have the day you deserve.
My baby girl is my entire world. I am okay, I am not going to self harm. Some days are just extremely hard to get through. Thankfully God gives me the strength to keep on going I'm just tired, and wish all the bad luck would chill out for a bit.
Anyways, thank you all again, & to anyone else going through the dark times, I hope this helped you also feel a little less alone, like it did me reading your comment. Find something to hold to, for me, I hold on to my beautiful babygirl. She's my rock and I thank God for her every single day, there's no way I would of survived all this without her, or you. ♥️ I pray things get easier for all of us. None of us should have to be struggling as bad as we are. We deserve better..
P.s. I'm so glad you exist. 😘
Anyone want to buy my Geforce 2080 Super? I'm parting out my gaming/streaming PC. don't mind shipping it.
If I didn't have bad luck, I'd have none at all. Literally the second I merged onto the interstate, BOOM! 🙄😡 IKYFL.
