Violet Shadowbane

My absence won’t haunt anyone because my presence never mattered If no one bothered to care now why would they care later I’m so tired 🫩🫩

Reading in the back seat while disassociating from people’s negative remarks and bullshit while running errands and going to the book store for moms benefit

Everyday it’s the same I wake up Hug myself Wipe my tears Put on a show face And do what everyone wants I’m jealous of people who have someone that loves them and helps them when they fall But I swallow that bitterness down I should be happy for them to have a better life I’m even jealous of fictional characters How pathetic is that I’m so pathetic… All I do is give to everyone Becuase it’s expected of me And I always expect nothing to be given to me At the end of the day I clean up Crawl into bed Bury myself beneath cold blankets And hug myself as I cry till I fall asleep Like a broken record Every day

6:27am Haven’t slept Feel exhausted and drained And yet I’m expected to get up, care for the dog and cat, get the trash to the curb Make a grocery list Get groceries Make food for everyone And wear a smile Why? Because im not allowed to feel anything but happy for the life I have No crying, its wrong No complaining, no one cares Do everything for everyone And no one realizes how many times I thought… I hope I don’t wake up in the morning Yet here I am… Like a broken record, everyday Here I am…

It’s 12:30 am And I have the overwhelming feeling of loneliness, feeling like a failure, a disappointment to everyone, and wanting to fall asleep and never wake up hitting me all at once 🫩 the feeling that no one really cares because no one really knows me or cares to know me… God I hate this shit I hate myself I hate everything

I would have been so happy if they made the sweater an actual sweater dress like what Millie is wearing in the thumbnail 😭💙 #HelluvaBoss

It’s back in stock 😍 sharkrobot.com/products/merr… #HelluvaBoss

Woke up this morning at 3 am with the worst urge to go jump off a cliff or walk into busy traffic…. I really don’t know what to do with my life anymore… These thoughts keep getting louder and louder and I keep getting more tired 🫩

It will solely depend on what the designs look like, my optimism for these drops isn’t as high as they used to be 😕🫤 and with things sitting at “limited stock” it doesn’t give everyone a chance to get merch when it sells out to fast And dropping so much so often is unbearable when some of us don’t have the budget to keep up But thanks for fueling our fomo Hopefully this holiday drop is better than the last

Also going to continue and stay away from social media for a while longer just because I don’t feel comfortable or safe being online with all the election and politics going on

I really don’t want to live in this time anymore Why is there always so much hate and bullshit no matter what And this country has become so immature and chaotic that I’m not even sure I feel happy here, no one is happy when things don’t go their way and they sit there and complain about it all the time I know I’m just rambling but honestly…I’m just tired of seeing the blame game, the “one against the other” game, country divided Bullshit I’d rather be a hermit living on an island right now… I’m so tired