Zaine Jack

Sitting on my car with a gun to my head listening to @nfrealmusic .........#letmego is exactly what I needed to listen to to make the decision to end everything

Final destination music.youtube.com/watch?v=54…

Why'd you say I don't belong here? (Huh?) Fill a bucket full of my tears (Huh?) Pour it out the water, all of my insecurities whenever I'm scared I watch 'em grow and say, "I don't care" I pray to God they ask if hope's real And if it isn't, I was thinking Maybe you could introduce us, we ain't met still Yeah, my chest feels like a blade's in it Who put it there? I think they did it Out the zone know, where am I head it Am I Hell-bound? Will I find Heaven? Will I feel better or just regret it? If I let you go and find the seven letters I been looking for us like it's never endin' Open all the doors and let the peace enter I'm (so, so, so) Pitiful at times, miserable inside They want me to hide (no, no, no) How can I survive? Change your state of mind I should say goodbye (no, no, no) They want me to beg, they want me to plead, they want me to die They just want me dead, they just want me hurt Don't want me to live, don't want me alive Stop with the pretending, I don't feel respected I just feel rejected, I don't like rejection You promise protection, I don't feel protected I just feel neglected, how can I respect it? I'll teach them a lesson, I pick up the weapon Aim in your direction, shoot at my reflection Shatter my perception, hate it when I'm desperate You just want perfection, I want you to let me

Talk to you with my hands tied Walk towards you on a fine line Everybody has a dark side I feel embarrassed when they see mine Rain falling from my dark skies Clouds parting, but it's all lies Shouldn't I see the sunshine now? Wonder how I look in God's eyes Am I a good person or a lost one? Will this feel worth it when I'm all done? Will I feel ashamed of like who I was? With the pain vanish or will more come? Will I stay numb or regain love? Maybe someday have a taste of freedom? Will I take the poison out of my blood? Or just leave it there inside of my lungs?

Fixing things is hard it's stressful God damn it is depressing but what I'm learning is it's all about mindset I'm not envisioning her back in the same old house doing our same old routine I'm advising her in a wedding dress wearing that infectious smile of hers because that's what I want not the same old relationship, I want her for life You have to visualize what you want not what you had.

Leaving this here in case anyone else is in a situation like me and can use some words of wisdom to maybe give you a little hope. youtu.be/LpKRdQ8aSUw?si=p8rB…

Doing life without your #bestfriend / #significantother is the worst experience of my life. Never felt more alone and just overall lost in my entire life. #wishshewashere

Finally getting around to this classic. Honestly, it couldn't come at a more important time so hopefully @jordanbpeterson comes through with those hard life lessons, as per usual, and his words can help navigate me through one of the hardest times in my life. open.spotify.com/show/2JUqMk…

I'm done start locking up all of these are sick fucks no more allowing this bullshit

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Hahaha @JohnKennedyLA is without a doubt the greatest #Senator to ever do it and there is no debate whatsoever lol 😂