My heart is stuck somewhere else. Where will you find dignity from?
It's a sad situation. I don't think anybody could do anything about it.
He is mine. And he can't let go of me. We have an inhuman relationship between us. We kill each other and call it love.
It's not like I hate you (or I desire you less). It's just.. I want to live for something. For the sake of my own happiness.
'Surviving', they say.
Why do you think I work so hard here? I want to please God? Of course I do.
But conversing with people is not a pure act of worship. Is it?
I have a responsibility-oriented mindset, helping people just makes me happy.
I do want to come back for my own sake. I seriously do. But you've made things so complicated.
It's not like I am interested in Ahmed more than you. I just need a strong tangible reason to survive.
When I was protecting Ayesha, I was happy enough. Now I need another reason.
I did love him. But he left me to my own devices, didn't care about my problems, didn't show any concern via tangible actions.
Now he is demanding me not to forget him.
I don't know what to say here. Logic/integrity and strong emotions are in conflict.
It's all about happiness. Right? A woman doesn't mean anything if she cannot keep you happy.
I don't understand why Jesus is still not happy when he got the entire world and all the beauties at his feet.
