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giving up on making my profile look cute or anything. it's just been my diary at this point for the past few years. i don't actually expect to gain oomfs but the ones that stick around, ily <3

started my period too

was just told my jobs not "laying me off" but not giving me hours until may??? hello??????? killing MYSELFFFF BRO 😭😭

rocked back up to bmi 25 bc 🥲🔫

i hate having "high functioning" bpd and interacting with my friends with bpd. they always get passes on their tweak outs but when i even show an ounce of emotion every once in a while its weird. GOD FORBID BRO 😭😭 YEAH I HATE THAT IM SHOWING IT TOO MY FAULT LOL

yeah we're running a tight schedule here. any day im not fasting im hoping for 600 calories max but letting 900 slide. every day at LEAST one of my big bottles of water if not 2. hoping for 5-10k steps and sprinkling in ab work outs. ending early if i hit my goal

took lax for the first time without "needing" it.. kinda wanted to reset my body ig before my fast went on for too long 😬

my boyfriend is so hot oh my god. he's so pretty. he's so perfect. i need to be just as perfect as him :( ugh

fuck

now (145lbs) ---> almost heaviest (195lbs) yikes. still so much to go. feeling so gross and so bad about myself. ew ew ew ew ew !!!

i wanna fast until i hit 135lbs :/ idk if i can even make it tho especially with halloween n stuff

party this weekend. idk and i don't even WANNA know how many calories i had 😭😭

i hit bmi 24. healthy normal bmi 🥲🥲🤍

i think im finally at the point where i got over my binge eating problem and actually developed a fear of food..