Am I a larp for not wanting to go deeper than deep 🫘’s SIMPLY because the idea of needing stitches is a hassle?
I need to fucking do it.. I can go deeper the ones I liked just a bit more than my other ones are already starting to fade and not be bright red anymore, I can’t stand it. I need to relapse.
I need to relapse so fucking bad holy shit everybody is testing me and it’s so fucking easy to get injured rn…
Withdrawal symptoms from just under a few weeks of not being in pain are fucking getting to me it’s making me go insane
I told somebody about how upset I was that I couldn’t SH and trying to explain it was withdrawal from the behavior and shortly after adding them on my vent account (1/3)
They decided to IMMEDIATELY talk about SH for the first time in “a while” and how good it felt and how they couldn’t go deep becuase “the blades won’t work right” (2/3)




