Ash

If I’m here it means I’m not doing well

does it ever get better or do you just die waiting for it to happen

you forgot to ask if I even wanted to be here

I make myself cry

I know how this ends I’ve been here before

just need to stay high enough to forget you

my sexuality is broken church windows

sext: you’re disappointing

my heart still asks me where you’ve gone

my partner doesn’t love me but I can’t live without him if this isn’t poetry idk what is

I came into the world crying and I’ll go out of it that way too

that wasn’t poetry that was just my life

the feeling never goes away all at once and that’s the most painful part

if only it was always this simple

i wrote this poem about you & read it out loud to strangers & someone was crying & this time it wasn't me

This isn't a love letter

I’m sad and angry and lonely and in love and the whole world is burning

you asked me what changed and i said everything that didn’t matter