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玉簪秋 | The Lament of Autumn Weibo 《过了这村没这簪》 Once We Leave This Place, There Will Be No Hairpin Like This Again late at night, countless memories of our younger years suddenly come rushing back. for a moment, i’m overwhelmed with emotions, yet i don’t even know where to begin. half a lifetime of separation, and only a few reunions. you and i have been entangled in each other’s lives until now. looking back, there was more happiness than regret. it’s just that our youthful years have already reached autumn, and i never realized that this troubled world would refuse to give us a little more time to love each other. recently, the command headquarters was destroyed, and our main camp is also in grave danger. but the northern entrance to wubei is a strategically vital military position. in tomorrow’s battle, we can only fight to the very end. with our homeland behind us, how could i possibly spare myself? if i never return from this battle… i know your nature. even through the hardest days, you’ll continue living with strength. but i still can’t help worrying about you. i’m afraid you’ll suffer, afraid others might mistreat you. little yu’er, grow up quickly and take good care of your mother in daddy’s place. i won’t be able to fulfill our promise beneath the red maple leaves. i hope you won’t blame me. my body will return to the earth, but my love for you will never fade. does this count as an invitation written for us by fate itself? let me be selfish just one more time. please don’t forget me. our first encounter on that rainy night is something i will never forget, even in death. pingjun, my wife, my beloved wife, how i wish i could hear you call my name just once more. — yu changxuan, final words