
ALT THIS IS WHAT GIRLS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD AT, SO WHY AM I SCREWING IT UP? IT'S NOT MY FAULT I STARTED LATE, PLUS, I THINK HUNTING IS WAY MORE FUN THAN THIS. BUT I WANT TO BE GOOD AT IT. WHY? IT'S WHAT GIRLS DO. I'M A GIRL. DOES THIS MEAN I CAN'T BE ONE? DOES THIS MEAN I'LL NEVER BE PRETTY? I WANT TO FEEL PRETTY. EQUIUS DOESN'T CALL ME PRETTY. IS IT MY FAULT? AM I NOT GOOD AT BEING A GIRL? AM I TOO RETARDED TO BE A GIRL? THAT'S WHAT KARKAT CALLS ME. MAYBE HE'S RIGHT

ALT I haven't been around for 6 months. I had split with a singular purpose in mind, and after a year, I had FAILED. I made no friends, instead I was losing the ones I had. I ran away My mind filled the gap, new and old alters decided that not caring was the safest solution "IT WAS POINTLESS FROM THE START." and "I'M CLEANING UP THE FALLOUT NOW!" were the closing statements Last month I slowly resurfaced unintentionally. We're seeing a DID specialist, but I (meaning as an alter) haven't talked to her yet. My problems are a little too specific, I think So, I'm trying to draw again. I'm not ready to come back yet. New and old alters are still wary that I'll cause another problem somehow Someday I'll return to her, when I think I've changed enough. -EQUIUS ZAHHAK 11:32PM, Oct. 15 2025










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