jus fuccin around
Los Angeles, CA
Joined October 2023
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well my asshole was blown out already so this is like throwing a hotdog down a hallway i don’t feel a thing
am i legally allowed to yeet my entire unemployment checks into nba parlays and over-leveraged longs ?
or is that not allowed
i know he don’t got the 3 ball like that but i still get irrationally hyped seeing wemby making 3 pointers purely based of the optics of his tall ass shooting so far away from the rim at all
i love my gf because she has a soul and is hot and sucks me off even though she can suck someone else off who is objectively better in some/all ways because girls who have a soul and are hot are consistent blowjobs away from locking down a guy and there’s insane levels of powers in that and i’m grateful her power is being used on me yk
i have nothing particularly useful funny insightful helpful to say and you should unfollow me because i’m a lost negative soul who will only leave you with funk particles like bringing in food into a bathroom would you do that ? would you bring food into a bathroom that smells ? shit particles all on your food, that’s me, im a fucking pile of shit and just following me is getting short particles everywhere on you, get the fuck away from me please and let me sit in my own fucking shit filth funk and die
i’m realizing that i am a coward who gambles financially in order to fulfill a thrill i biologically require but neglect in most ways
i am a man of inaction, frozen in analysis, who has only ever said fuck it when clicking buttons, and one singular other time, and it led to my long term relationship which i do adore and is the only thing i can hang my hat on
i have to take a step into adulthood and do more than maintain the status quo of make enough money to pay little to no rent to parents, buy my food, pay my gas and subscriptions, and gamble, buy bullshit, i’ve been just being the average american overconsumer nigger rich retard
FUCK
i have a lot of thoughts and swear sometimes they actually can be laid out in a way that implies a certain level of intelligence but i’m so far gone from that 11 year old that taught himself how to play chess, i can barely form a fucking sentence without spelling something wrong or realizing i’m just projecting some feeling out trying to give an impression of myself or some BS i can’t take myself seriously or even care about what i’m saying or see what the point is in saying it my confidence and pride is shattered i am a fucking skinny fat underachieving 5’ 7 loser
FUCK
i tweet things sometimes about myself that embarrassing, but forthcoming in the hopes that one day i amount to some success and can point to this all and say,
“that, that is the process”
i don’t drink and i’ve never been hungover
but i have smoked almost everyday since i was 15, with brief, few month long periods of not, i am 22 now
today is supposed to be my last day smoking, im getting this horrendous dual flavored fake cart, which is regular for me, ive been smoking these d8 spice whatever the fuck i honestly have no idea and it’s 100% altered by brain chemistry but im addicted, so this is not going to be fun/easy but i think this is really where i hang up the gloves
me (jazz enjoyer) just found out last second my girl is going to a jazz bar with her girl cousin, started bugging out and now she’s not texting me back, she’s buzzed, 5’2 in downtown LA and i’m her ride home
#cuck #jazzenjoyer
i picked her up dropped her cousin off and we had sex in car at 3AM
2/10 dick genuinely, it was late, i didn’t have my cock ring (makes me super hard) or take a dick pill (make dick stay hard after nutting)
mentally not feeling amazing, physically bit my nails off an hour or so before so fingers were hurting just grabbing her while she was riding me
i came very quickly and got soft very quickly after, i just did not have it
i’m fucking losing it man, can’t even have sex to fix it
spent entire weekend with my girl because i’m unemployed and was able to survive halloweekend
fri watched carrie on amazon prime was funny af, went for walk skeins neighborhood, and did some baby making
sat watched the original texas chainsaw massacre, then went
to jazz bar in costume, and came home and did more baby making
was tired, out of it, high af, and kinda depressed because of lack of confidence in life overall ngl, just feel like a fucking retard to be frank
but just a tiny bit of viagra and a cock ring and i’m genuinely hitting cervix so it’s all fine, but dont want to depend on that for long, gotta get my self respect back