Sorry it's taken me so long to answer this, and I'm quote tweeting so as to improve visibility so that other people can see it and understand. Basically it's because I had no idea how difficult it actually is to get a job when you have a disability as profound as mine. When I went to school, it was mainstream, but with a unit for disabled students, meaning I could attend normal lessons, but also be fully supported with things like physio and help with homework. This is relevant because all through my time there, I was never told that any ideas I had about potential employment were unrealistic, I thought about being a teacher, and even a politician at one stage, and nobody ever stopped to suggest that I might need to consider the actual practicalities. And so, having got my A-levels, I went to uni, which was difficult because, among other things, my transport was never fully reliable, and if my support worker was unavailable for whatever reason, I couldn't go because I needed them to carry out essential tasks, and couldn't manage on my own. Despite this, I did get through it and I'm very proud of that fact. However, I soon learned that the job market was going to be a completely different proposition. For example, I realised that in order to apply for the support I would need to do a job, such as transport, support worker, specialist equipment, you get the idea, I would first have to have a job. But, for someone in my position, knowing that the support is not optional, I couldn't apply for and obtain a job, without knowing whether I would get the fundamentally necessary support to do it. Even after I initially applied for and received benefits for not being able to work, I wanted to see what was out there is a possibility. So, through the DWP, I had a meeting with a lovely woman whose job it was to discuss possible employment opportunities with disabled people. And it became apparent very early on that I was going to be a particularly difficult case. I thought that an admin position might be the most realistic option, because I thought they were mainly computer-based. But she seemed to think that such a role wouldn't be particularly practical. Added to that, the prospect of any potential job falling apart because of a disability related issue, and then having to go through the whole benefit application process again from the beginning meant that mam and dad, my adviser, and I all mutually decided that it would be better for me not to proceed with finding employment. TL/DR: my life before uni did nothing to adequately prepare me for the scale of the difficulties I would have as a result of being a profoundly disabled adult.