Greg

The sender is expressing deep regret and self-blame for taking a pill or drug (described as minor use only), believing it was unnecessary and has permanently “messed with my mind.” • They feel they should have stayed completely drug-free, remained healthy and fit, and focused on personal goals instead, especially since their family is fine and their nephew successfully manages diabetes while still working. • The message shows strong feelings of “why did I do this” and comparison to others who deal with health issues without medication, leading to intense guilt. • Most critically, the sender states they are now experiencing daily suicidal thoughts as a direct result of this decision and its mental effects. • The heavy use of typos and run-on structure indicates they are writing while highly emotional, distressed, or in crisis. • Overall, this reads as a raw cry of despair and a possible call for support from the person they are messaging. The sender feels their life is ruined by one choice and is spiraling. If this is someone reaching out to you, respond with calm empathy, listen without judgment, and strongly encourage them to contact a suicide prevention hotline or mental health professional immediately (e.g., 988 in the US or local equivalent). This level of ongoing suicidal ideation needs real professional help.