Character of the Day: Leia Skywalker Organa Solo

Billie Lourd has written a beautiful message celebrating her mother Carrie Fisher’s 70th birthday 💕 “Today would have been my Momby's 70th birthday. Which feels way too young an age to be dead for almost 10 years. She should have been alive for at least 10 more years - not dead for 10. The last birthday I got to celebrate with her was her 60th. I wish I would've known it was her last but you never know a last is a last. Birthdays are harder than grief anniversaries for me because it's a day that's supposed to be a happy day. And it's hard to feel the happy in happy birthday when the person whose birthday it is isn't there to celebrate. So I didn't wake up happy today. I woke up feeling really angry that she wasn't able to get sober so she could be here with us to receive the happy in happy birthday. This is my 10th birthday having to celebrate her without her and that feeling is unfortunately always present. So I try to give myself space to let that anger sit for a moment, then I tell it to scoot over so I can let in the many other feelings I will inevitably feel on this day. The next feeling that showed up to the emotional party was a guest who is sure to show up every year - my girl Sadness. She always tends to be hiding right behind her old friend Anger. Being with my momby when she was at her best felt like home. A warm hug you never want to pull away from. What I imagine it feels like to be in a mother kangaroo's pouch. I miss that cozy sensation of what being with her felt like every single day and it breaks my heart that children can't experience it. But I have created my own version of it for them. And feel so lucky to be able to Carrie on my version that Carrie cozy. It wouldn't exist if she didn't exist. And I'm so beyond happy she existed. Happy 70th Momby. I love you forever. Thinking about anyone else who has lost someone they loved to drug addiction or anyone who has lost someone they had a multifaceted relationship with. May you allow all of the emotional guests to attend the emotional party - anger, sadness, frustration, joy, numbness, warmth, (insert emotion here).”