journal #42 i don’t have a title for this journal, i usually write my journals using pen and paper in my notebook then type it out as a shorter version or just summarized but this time i’m just typing it out cuz i don’t have a direction i want to go into i think a lot of this is going to be cope but also truth at the same time i’ve never been truly consistent on sol, and even if i did have long periods of time where i was green, it would be wiped out in a couple weeks or days, i remember in october when i was at my best level of trading i was making like 5-10k ish days everyday for the last 2 weeks of the month, and after that i was at my port’s ATH, and then november started and during that month i lost it all and a little more, then december i made it all back and more, then january i lost it all again and even more which put me at my port’s lowest ever since i zeroed out, like i lost 60% of my net in like 3 weeks im able to perform really well when the market matches my edge on sol but then as soon as it switches i just lose no matter how hard i try to adapt, but i think its because i always try and switch things up on sol i don’t want to keep talking about robinhood and be stuck on that era of my trading journey, because i want to move on and improve in the current market without fantasizing about the past, but the reason i was able to 10x my entire net in just 2 and a half months was because on robinhood i immediately understood it, i don’t even know how to explain it i just immediately got it without even needing to lose in the beginning, the only mistakes i made were ones where i didn’t maximize my profits and i made less than i should’ve, i was hardly losing, like ever, and when i did lose i was able to pick myself back up and get right back to winning its not the same for me on sol, on sol i’m just not consistent, on robinhood it’s almost as if i had a system like i was a robot getting on and executing trades as best as possible everyday, and it’s still like that whenever there’s a tiny amount of volume on the robinhood chain, it’s something that will never leave me, i’ll always be good on the chain but what im struggling to figure out is why can’t i have that be the same case for me on sol? i also struggle a lot with mental barriers when it comes to my port on sol, whenever i grow my port to like 450 ish sol from whatever i start with, i just can’t get past it, and it takes me just a couple days to get from 30-50 ish to 400+ but then it leads to a week+ of slow bleeding and losing that 400+ sol, i don’t know why thats the case, so to try and fix that ill just start moving profit out daily from my axiom to a cold wallet because thats what i would do on robinhood and it worked very well another thing is like i said i have on robinhood, a system like way of trading, i need to implement on sol but on sol i don’t have a system i always just make a bunch one way then i try to change things up and experiment which causes me to lose and it gets mentally tiring to make those losses back by going back to the way i was trading before i was losing and that just causes me to just get lost but tbh i don’t enjoy trading on sol, i’m still very hungry i want to become the best and achieve my goals but it just disappears when i stare at the slop that ends up running compared to what i believe are good narratives on sol, far too many times am i in a good coin on sol and it gets no buys then someone redevs it and a more tracked wallet buys and it just ends up bonding without me in it cuz if i just bought the same coin 3 times and it didn’t go how am i supposed to expect it to go the 4th time, it just doesn’t make sense sol is also just so boring as well, legit the people who run coins on the chain are just in love with dicks and farts and tits and rerunning the same shit over and over, examples being cat in bag being just like dog wif hat with a little twist because it’s paired to zcash

journal #40 sol after last month ended i said i plan on staying focsed on robinhood and staying patient on there but it is literally like watching paint dry and im wasting time when i could just scan robinhood while also trying to get good at sol since it's so slow on robinhood right now so thats my plan right now, im not as good as i was before on sol because im very behind on the metas, ive been trying to trade it today but i just go back and fourth tbh and i just need to work on being aware of what is considered good to buy right now, what runs, whats slop, be better and faster at dd for tech and so on im starting from a very very very low amount on sol to mold my self into being a good trader on sol again, im just being honest with myself and accepting that im so behind, so starting from a low amount will help me stay disciplined and adapt rather than loading up a big amount and trying to rush things i thought staying on robinhood was the move after i had made so much in the first 4 days but it's actually so dead, it's like one of those white padded rooms that they put crazy ppl in going to just focus on myself and growing my skill on sol, better days ahead inshallah

journal #41 half way through the month reflection i said last month that i was going to have majority of my profits come from robinhood and somehow with how dry and dead robinhood has been, that's been the case so far idk why ive been stuck in the same spot on sol for the past week, i just cant get my self to sell at bond or 20k, of course sometimes i do because the coin is just weak so i just move on but majority of my losses are just coming from rting into losses, i just keep holding and even when i sell inits i end up putting my inits back into the chart and then holding to 0 or until i decide its over and sell for a loss there's just something different abt how i execute on rh compared to sol idk what it is, the biggest issue is that i just cant execute on sol idk how the coins i like just top so low, doesnt make sense to me idk, im going to keep trying to get better at sol ofc but its honestly not enjoyable to me either so its like im forcing myself to try and get good at something i dont rlly care for, ofc money is there so need to adapt, and a lot of cope, but i just hate trading sol atm started with 30 sol and its been exactly 7 days now and im at 280 sol, was at 410 sol at some point because the coins i was able to hold were playing out for me so i made big wins, idc abt the port number, cuz i dont have a goal for how much sol im trying to get to, just trying to get better and be the best on the chain, but for now its looking like its going to be a hard journey but ik ill evntually get it down like i always do, just needs time and patience i also need to zoom out and not just concentrate on this past week alone, grateful to be up 6 figs half way through this month even tho its my worst month performance wise alhamdulilah for everything and inshallah better days ahead

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