JP

He died today . When the gates opened , he was there to receive me as always. Wagged his tail jumping up & down eyes beaming with love. I smiled . The heavy diesel engine was still roaring waiting for it to cool before switching off . I stepped out of the car bt I couldn't see my beautiful dog. What I didn't know is that my poor dog was right there looking at me wondering why I was killing it. See , I had ran over my poor dog with the weight of the car crushing the lower part of its body totally. It didn't make a sound and if it did , the heavy roar of my diesel engine didn't let me hear it. It lay there looking at me , still alive bt with its lower body crashed totally intestines burst out. Tears freely fell down from my eyes as I closed the door to our store with a crowbar in my hand. The only reasonable thing I'd do is end it's pain Quick. Gave it one last look , knowing that would be my last time to see it alive. My dog died today. I killed it. It died knowing the one it trusted the most betrayed it. I feel horrible. As I dug that grave at the corner of our land, I promised myself I'm never again getting a pet. I don't deserve one 🤦‍♀️