*‍ ‍𝕾URVIVOR ‍ ꜝ ‍

i wasn’t horrified by the bloodstains on my hands 𓈒 instead ﹐ i found them beautiful 𓈒 each drop is a work of art 𓈒

⠀ so uh 𓈒 do any of us know what we’re doing ﹖ ⠀

⠀ i never thought i’d get to have this 𓈒 a proper life — a found family 𓈒 i’d spend eternity repaying you all for taking in a monster that was suppose to die 𓈒 ⠀

it carries the stars of a sky that no longer exists 𓈒 he keeps that whole universe alive 𓈒

he is a thousand sunsets from a world that will never see another dawn 𓈒

be my executioner 𓈒 by your hands ﹐ is the only way i’m willing to die 𓈒

why did they want me to live ﹖ why did they save me ﹖ all i do now is suffer a life alone 𓈒

i want to prove to everyone i can be better -—— that i can do the right thing 𓈒

we can’t be together ꜝ they —-— they hate me ꜝ and they’ll hate you too 𓈒𓈒𓈒 i can’t let that happen 𓈒 can you see it now ﹖ that we were doomed from the start 𓈒𓈒𓈒

you guys need me right ﹖ 𓈒𓈒𓈒 please 𓈒 please need me 𓈒

i needed you ꜝ why couldn’t you see that ﹖ —— well now it’s too late 𓈒 i’ll survive without you 𓈒

i long for a place that no longer exists 𓈒 i’m trapped here ﹐ survivor’s guilt 𓈒

i can’t control myself 𓈒 somebody help me tame this animal i have become 𓈒

show him to me 𓈒 show me the monster i know you still are 𓈒

i try , and i try , and i try , and i try -———— but i’ll always be a monster to all of you , won’t i ? then fuck it . thats what ill be .

it’s no use . go on without me , be everything we use to dream of .

“yeah someones gonna die .” “—— of fun !”

did you ever care about me at all ﹖

are you sure you can handle this ﹖