im simply convinced these posts are made by predators or non disordered people because why would you ever want to help somebody ruin their life like this? this is a direct path to future suicide, it’ll take years to undo once you’re completely isolated.
𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘺
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𝘢 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘥 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭𝘴 𝘰𝘧 #edrtwt
i feel like i’m too disordered sometimes, not in a “best ana” way, i see so many people saying bmi 10-12 & below is ugly & too bony but i’d literally kill to get back down to that bmi again. i want to look like a decorated corpse again. i need to look like i’m about to die
i’ve been stuck in a cycle for nearly a decade and it’s gotten so much worse over these last 4 years. i’ve spent so long reinforcing the relief i get from negative compulsions actually facing what makes me distressed seems almost impossible without trying to correct or fix
im potentially getting a job at a bakery close to me as an assistant baker, how freaking quaint is that?!!!
it never gets old getting new pointe shoes oh my gosh, i still get excited everytime despite having dozens of dead pairs. i love breaking them in everytime
im so jealous of girls that are 5’4 and above, finding clothes that aren’t too long or don’t look bulky is so hard
rice also just tastes amazing and i have to force myself not to eat it everyday, it’s so versatile ughh i love it
i don’t understand how rice is a fear food for some people it’s so filling, not even half of 2 cups will have me full for the entire day and leaves leftovers for tmr and it’s only about 340c in total?? that’s about or even less than 170c in a day and you get to remain full
starting to understand why people get confused about pasta & rice calories, i looked up how many calories a portion of dry rice i was prepping and why did it say there was more calories after it was cooked?? like no?? using water does not add more calories what 😭😭
wanting to purge but having sensitive teeth is a learning experience. i’ve learnt my lesson after it felt like i had the worst toothache for 4 days straight but oh my gosh exercise purging feels like hell
even though my body issues started when i was around 7, it never came to me for years that i could purposely starve and restrict myself & exercise purge to lose weight?? not until i was 13 strangely








