Haven || 🏚️twt

⋆.𐙚˚࿔ Intro 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ♪ ⋆˚She/her • 17yo ♬⋆˚Dms open ♪ ⋆˚Ifb most ♬⋆˚No DNI (I block if I feel the need to) ♪ ⋆˚Music, anime, pjsk, yuri/yaoi, etc ♡ or ⟳ for moots! #shrtwt #edrtwt #sledtwt #pjsktwt #anitwt #mangatwt #yuritwt #yaoitwt ✦•┈๑⋅⋅๑┈•✦

Oomfs what would I do without you guys like you guys have helped me and given me advice on SOOO much like I love all of you guys so so much 🥹💜

So I apparently have a tonsil stone I’m scared as FUCK guys I’ve been freaking out for an hour now since I saw it

I need help but I don’t know where to find help for an eating disorder. Could anybody even help me other than myself? I don’t have a therapist at the moment but maybe getting a new one would help since the last one was awful. I’m just so close to giving up

Why is my ED getting worse while I’m in the process of seriously trying to fix it? My body can barely handle food without intense nausea and I’m getting scared. Why is my body going against me? Am I going to die? Even water makes me nauseous. Idk what to do I’m freaking out

I’m just very sad tonight :(

I felt weirdly hyper and happy for like 2 hours and now I feel absolutely dreadful I saw one of my old edits of Your Lie In April and started crying like holy frap Haven it’s not even that deep 😔

I need to clean my sheets this week because there’s just like unfortunately a gross combination of my blood all over the place bc I don’t do after care I lowkey just lay down and go to sleep after it’s done I’m so sorry bed sheets

When you just like wanna like you just lowkey think like you lowkey just just and just like you want to and just ok

WAIT WHY IS MY NOSE BLEEDING I JUST WOKE UP HELLO TF!?

Guys I had a random 2am lock in like I just wrote two 4 paragraph essays in the span of 1 hour and I don’t even know how I locked in that much I just had the urge to get it done

Sorry I wasn’t very active today oomfs school is kicking my ass lowkey

Nauseous but I haven’t even eaten anything yet #ok

Fuck dude my dad told me he’s unimpressed with my weight progress. Why doesn’t anybody in my household have faith in me like I’m trying but I know it’s been shitty and I know it’s not fast progress. Idk why I try anymore tbh. I’m trying to tell myself it’s for me but idk anymore.

I made ramen but I guess my tastebuds no longer like it???? Hello???? What the fuck???? I LOVE ramen what is going on I’m so confused like dude :(

I could cry from how nauseous I am. This has happened almost everytime I eat every since attempting recovery from my ED and oh my goddddd it fucking sucks I feel sick to my stomach rn but I barely ate why is this happening to me

Will I ever make it to 100lbs? Actually I should just enjoy being in the 90s while I can because I am so so scared of what my body will look like when I get over 100lbs like I don’t wanna look fat and I don’t want my face to look more chubby than it already does sigh

What the fuck. My parents asked me if I wanna go to Starbucks and I said yes. Because we do drive thru. But they changed their mind and now we’re going to a nice breakfast place. Guys. I’m braless in my pjs and my hair is a disaster since I just woke up. What the fuck.

Ughhh I complain about my acne getting bad when it’s my own fault that I have no motivation to wash my face everyday. But today I locked in and I washed my face for the first time in awhile. It was refreshing I’m glad I found motivation to do it