Molok0

A reminder that my boyfriend is into her. I need to lock in.

No one cares

If I didn't have a boyfriend I would have already changed my whole face with surgery and dyed my hair. I just want to be someone else but myself.

My birthday is in less than a week and I just sh, I am drinking and isolating yay

Drinking because I cannot go to sleep like this, I want to feel peace when trying to sleep

They want to hear for me so they can feel at peace and not because they actually care about me feeling better

I've been wanting to sh for a week and being strong and not doing it and today scrubbing my skin in the shower scrubbed so hard my arms that a bleed... I don't know how the skin is going to look once it heals but I just teared one layer of skin. Yes this is a cry for help

I am not trans neither non-binary but my gender feels like something on top of me that covers my true self. Maybe that's why I want to lose weight so I can get rid of gendered characteristics.

So my weight is the one I told myself to kms if I achieved.

Instead of being a werewolf you're a weresheep and every night you are terrified of your family eating you.

We all want to look like twinks deep down right?

I actually want to make friends here lol

Free mental health help is shit. I went to a first session and after saying I cut myself and I even sometimes hit my face and head with a hairdryer multiple times, they think it is not necessary to have more sessions... At this point I will just throw the hairdryer in the bathtub

Spaghetti straps

At this point my body is always fighting to be between 50-52. Maybe that is my "natural weight" it's so hard to be less than 50 for me.