bonnie | equinox flower

situation so fucked they got me listening to ghost again

i think its good as is if you wanna make it more complex maybe add a texture/shiny sheen on the cats to rlly show how transparent they r

u call white people on the phone and they deadass pick up and say "what's higgity happenin"

This is legitmately the last thinfg I wanted from all of this and yet Somehow it seems like its happening no matter what

junto a la estacion yo llorare igul que un nino porque te vas

i just want to hear it out of your fucking mouth so i could maybe start to understand how you fucking tick. this level of avoidance is pathetic. i'm mad it took me so fucking long to realize you were never a friend to me. god i wish you would fucking tell me. fuck you

i'm a big girl and you can't hurt my fucking feelings anymore so by GOD do i wish you would just spit it the fuck out and tell me what it is you really think and why you see me the way you do. GOD i fucking wish you would. i don't want toa rgue about it or even defend myself

you think i'm so incapable of growth or being mature or getting better when i've been doing nothing but let you walk all over my fucking face up until this point. and i wish i WISH you would look me in the eyes and just fucking say it because that's all i've ever wanted

i cannot imagine what the hell could have possibly justified all this. i cannot imagine what i have done that has made you hate me so fucking bad. i have no idea what it is about me you find so annoying and pathetic and small and i have no idea what it is about me that makes

in the now two years i've known you not once have you ever been a real friend to me when i threw myself over hot coals all the goddamn time to defend you even when you weren't there and to speak up for you and to help you get to where you wanted to be

fucking listened to me anyways about anything. i cannot name one thing you've ever done for me. i cannot think of one nice thing you've ever said to me. i cannot think of one time you were actually willing to sit and talk things out with me like a big girl.

but somehow you have it set in your heart that i'm the one who never changes or never grows. whatever helps you fucking sleep at night. i wish i could tell you to your fucking face how goddamn sad and small you are but it wouldn't even matter because it's not like you ever

not care anymore and i would never fucking forgive you for all this no matter what you told me because YOU never fucking change. you consistently never want to deal with problems like a big girl you consistently want to gossip and hide and be catty like we're in highschool

door. and you know what that's fine because after this you are always going to be that sad unappreciative manchild that takes and takes and takes and that's too scared to ever have a real conversation. you could talk to me right now and spill your entire heart and i still would

i'll always be seventeen to you i'll always be annoying and loud and fragile and unable to have a real conversation when you're the one who doesn't wanna put on his big boy pants and have a conversation when i couldn't be asking any nicer other than sending flowers to your fuckin

about me in any meaningful way and you refuse to let yourself see that i have changed and grown and been doing nothing but trying to get better. with everything. you will always see me as that weak and fragile and pathetic seventeen year old and i don't even care anymore

good luck with your fucking dreams when you can't even have a fucking conversation over text with someone in an entirely different country cause youre just so scared we're going to fight and you don't want to deal with it. fucking whatever. you have never once cared

you are genuinely so selfish and sad and i cannot fucking fathom having the outlook on the world and your friends that you do and i cannot fucking imagine treating somebody the way you've treated me after how much i tried for you and how much i did for you