being asexual with a hypersexual trauma response kind of really fucking sucks

i want to rest in someones arms free and isolated from this world and somewhere far away

im tired

i hate tolerance omg

rosie wants to shrivel up and wilt so fucking bad and its only tuesday

love u xoxo

okay so it doesn't do anything if you didn't actually study

doing a line before my test for goodluck

okay anyway time to do my makeup since im running late again

everyone thinks theyre better than addicts bc they dont realize all it takes is one day one hour one minute for everything to snap. i wouldnt be spending part of my morning making lines if my dad never assaulted me. but no empathy for addicts ever

deciding to only do one line for the morning instead of multiple for the sake of my tolerance and harm reduc

forgot to take my birth control yesterday too yeah lets die

my cortisol spikes in the morning i cry the moment i wake up half the time

anyways gonna try sleeping never be chronically ill also i hope my heart stops working #manifestig

shortness of breath continues to worse and i keep having to manually breathe haven't been in this phase in a while

what are some closely accurate ways to measure doses when you don't have a scale #drugtwt i wanna be #safer

ppl say i remind them a lot of jecka which makes sense i love her and shes my pfp but i dont think she is nearly as bad as i am

would go on a bender but its monday night once again i hate the passage of time everything feels so slow and so fast