TinSama 💀👻🟥

I am sorry for being a faliure. And thank you for caring. I finally hit rock bottom and dont think i can get up anymore. Sometimes i just wish all this was just a bad dream and i wake up back when things were simpler.

Halloween is usually my favorite time of the year but this year it very much turned to a nightmare. Seems 2026 is the year that will finally put a end to me. I hope everyone else can at least have a good time and be well. Ill try to just make the best out of what is left.

We really desperately need any and all help we cant even afford groceries curently and i wont be abpe to deal with bills so any and every help goes a very long way. Sorry for constantly depending on your help but its all that we have. ko-fi.com/tinsama/goal?g=49

At the end of my strenght. We at home extremely depend on me hitting the monthly goal but there is no way that this will happen this month. After everything still have also debt from my fathers passing on top of not being able to get my meds or bills sorted. I just cant anymore.

Things havent been well for a long time but i feel this year just topped it all. With my fathers passing, my condition worsening and being at the worst state financially ever, i am properly running out of strenght to put up with everything anymore and want life just be over with.

After i got a drawing tablet gifted todayvi am slowly learning how to hold things properly and how clip stidio works will hopefully post more doodles and little scribbles i do along the way

I really want to learn about herbalism. With how the world is going i think going back to knowledge that helps you survive and strive in the worst conditions seems like good knowledge to have. But anytime i try learning new stuff my brain feels blocked, shorts must have fried me

I reallt want for everyone that things start getting beter. The world has been just chaotic. And life has become beyond hard for some. We just all need a breather so i wish easier times on us all. And hope that everyone that is able to can have a nice treat and enjoy this sunday

Its insane that its already the end of the month. Today marks 3 months since the passing of my dad. It all feels still sureal and i havent been dealing with it well at all. Maybe that is why today i feel even more down than i usually do. Wish you all better times regardless.

Today 8 years ago i lost you after 22 years of being the best friend i ever had. I hope heaven has been treating you kindly and i think of you still every day. Love you forever and miss you dearly.

I keep pushing over every limit i have just to try and make things work out at home and my heart has been going crazy on me it has been a strugle to even breathe cause i keep having palpatations. I feel like a insane waste of space. All i want is just take care of my mom and pets

Never have i been as sad and as pained as i have been the past 2 months. Things grew fully out of proportions and the grief is just not letting loose. We fought more than we were on good terms yet it feels like a part of me was torn away and i only feel worse and worse.

Really badly need things to get better.

Life is a cruel thing. It can show you the most wonderful expiriences you could have ever imagined and also the absolutely most awful ones It can make you taste something to then take it forever away As beautiful it is that ugly it can get. But i am thankful i could partake in it

Its been now 2 months. I still havent stopped grieving. Every day several times of the day i keep blaming myself i keep asking myself what i could have done differently for us to maybe have had been closer or better to eachother. But nothing can ever be done anymore...

I am genuinely getting to that point where i just dont want to exist anymore.

Sorry for posting this here but we really need any and all help. There has been immense financial burden put on us due to my fathers passing so absolutely anything and everything helps. ko-fi.com/tinsama/goal?g=49

I feel empty. I am tired. Tired of the constant pain, tired of the constant issues, tired of the never ending stress. I dont even see a point anymore. Feel like im soley around to ensure my mom is safe and the cats cared for.