sunny ୨ৎ

i feel like i was doing better when i was cutting myself than now, i really really wanna relapse

i kind of want to delete this account

I've been lashing out so much lately

i feel like im going insane nothing is getting better for me im so sick of this its all the same for me cant i have a single good day? im starting to hate posting here because all i ever have to say is depressing stuff but i dont know what else to do, this is hell

i hate the person I've become i swear im not this depressing i swear i still have a personality im still fun this is just a bad phase yes it's been 3 years but still its just a bad phase im normal i just need to get through this trust i can still function

i actually have no way out i should really kill myself i cant take all this bullshit anymore

my sister woke me up just to yell at me because she lost my dads credit card and i gave it to her so its my fault? she starting saying stuff how she'll make sure I'll never get to have it again mind you i never did anything to this bitch i didn't realise she actually hated me

i haven't slept ok in so long

ok so i can't think about anything but killing myself at what point do i actually do it? bc this pmo like whats the end goal here