Yup, and there goes my biggest supporter on Twitch... Well financially, but sure as hell not emotionally. I just banned him from my channel and discord. Why do they always end up too invested in me and get mad that I don't show interest in romance with them... or do exactly as they say with my content, all the time. It just became hostile and so so toxic... I tried allocating lots of time to him because apparently my replies to his dms were taking too long, like I didn't give a shit... and I let him take some direction on content, despite me thinking it wasn't a great idea. I got word from others that he dm'd them, complaining about how I 'ignored' him in chat, sending timestamps of times that he said something in chat and I didn't respond, even speculating to others that my lure sponsor Dr Hook (based in my city) and I were a 'thing'... And about two days ago, he asked me if I slept with my old friend Nathan, who I caught up with the other night..? Surely these speculations were part of the reason why he was becoming so snappy with me... and after some advances from him, I told him that nothing could possibly happen between him and I, for he lived in the USA. That goes for anyone, I don't do overseas... This past Saturday, I spent about 9 hours editing a video which I quickly shared on a brief broadcast to Twitch, only to have him go afterwards 'you only added a few clips from the last time you showed a draft' as though... what? I was lying about spending 9 hours on it? then said that it seemed like I had to rush off to be somewhere after the broadcast. No, I was merely jacked up with anxiety and proceeded to sit on the couch with popcorn and watched a documentary about clones and another about Taylor swift... but I was often checking my phone to make sure I was replying to him in a somewhat timely manner... I liked it when we genuinely had fun casual chats, played some games together, but it became too much... I'm tired of this happening... I've had a good sob. Big supporters like that are always too good to be true. I received such a nasty goodbye message, he really showed his colours. I have so many stresses with my brother being in hospital, financial stress which is now going to become far worse, pressures with my video editing taking too long and the software/tech frustrating me, my house is getting very messy again, I'm picking at my feet out of stress to the point that they throb and I have to limp... And I'm having anxiety attacks left, right and centre. And the hardest thing right now is for me to go online on Twitch with a smile on my face and act like I don't have a care in the world. I feel I am on the verge of quitting. I don't want to keep having this shit happen... My mental state has just taken a beating from this bullshit with him. I'm sorry guys, I don't know. I'm telling myself not to post this, but again, I don't know. I feel so lost. For the record, I'm cancelling today's 8am AWST stream. It's 6:15am and I haven't slept... Sorry to disappoint.

🧑‍⚖️ Wish me luck today🤞with a like❤️ – at Albany, Western Australia

Fishing live stream in about an hour from now. Catch you in the ocean! – at Albany, Western Australia

Rest in Peace desktop streams. No more of Twitch or Whatnot here. – at Albany, Western Australia

Another year older, definitely another year wiser. ❤️ – at Albany, Western Australia

Anyone else watch any shows/movies for the first time and have to include subtitles? Can't focus properly without em 😂 – at Albany, Western Australia

Don't trust your travel buddy to give you your usual 2 x 5mg of adhd meds in the morning without checking the letters on it... or they may give you 2 x 2mg clonazapam, which explains why you felt dopey and you crash your scooter later that day. – at Mae Nam, Thailand

Yo, Thailand vibes are awesome I just may have no recollection of the biggest bruise I’ve ever had in my life. Do I have rabies? As I like to pat any animal I see. Maybe I bumped into a lady boy at the cabaret show last night after too many Singas

Oh, this is how I dids – at West Swan, Western Australia

Off to Thailand for a few days, Koh Samui baby! Just dyed my hair, ready to rock without greys LUL – at Albany, Western Australia

whatnot.com/s/n4h3EEmT Will I see you there? I'll be gone for 2 weeks as of this weekend – at Albany, Western Australia

My heart breaks for Hayden Panettiere's family and friends. I remember listening to her podcast 3 months ago about how broken she's felt since she lost her brother, I felt that so deeply... And if it was overdose, I wonder if my fate may be the same. Nothing has hurt harder. – at Albany, Western Australia

I wish I could go back to these days ❤️😭 – at Albany, Western Australia

'Why don't you, FishingSolo and Thund3rSpann3r do fishing streams anymore?' Here's my response... – at Albany, Western Australia

Loads of items in stock! Come say g'day, it's quieter than a priest's confessional after the altar boys learn to keep their mouths shut. whatnot.com/live/012d4631-25… – at Albany, Western Australia