spookylexi

dear you, im sure you can realize that im talking to you. ive thought about what i would say to you if we ever spoke again. ive thought of very angry and long messages all stemming from the hurt ive felt from you. after we stopped being friends, i realized id never get an apology from you. because you genuinely don’t think you did anything wrong. so here, because im not perfect, ill say this. im sorry. im sorry that there were times that i made you feel small. im sorry that i made you feel anxious and insecure in your friendships and spaces. none of anything ive said or done was ever to make you feel those ways. i was hurting and honestly i still am. after everything we went through individually and together i never thought that it would come to this. i still remember the day you told me that you would never make someone feel the way you have for well over a year now. that you would never put anyone through the witch hunting and loses you felt by being banned by people you thought were your friends. but here we are. you are doing it to me. for something i never did. you are making sure that i remain miserable and lose as much as you feel myself and others have taken from you. but i know deep down you know im not to blame im just an easy target. but hell maybe im wrong, after all you are the one that said im “finally getting what i deserve” for being a “bitch” that has “stolen your best friends.” having people i trusted spying on me, relaying information to you. it is honestly something i never thought you would do. so ill say it here, for everyone to see. i am not talking badly about you in public or private spaces. im not gossiping about you or trying to ruin your life. talking about what you have done and how you have made me feel is not talking shit or starting drama. i can show you on several occasions where someone has asked what happened between us and ive just said we aren’t friends and haven’t been in awhile but they are more than welcome to continue communicating and keeping a friendship with you. i have never asked, told or advised anyone to ban you. ive actually told people after they heard what happened between us to look past it and build their own opinions on you. to not ban or block you based on my experience. ive tried to remain mature about this. because im not trying to alienate you or take any more away from you than you’ve already lost. so ill finish it with this, please leave me alone. stop making it seem or appear that im ruining your life. stop referring to me as “that bitch” because “after everything ive done to you, you can’t keep saying people can be friends with whoever they want.” stop witch hunting me and getting anyone that will listen to ban me. i didn’t do the things you are telling them and you know it.