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once again, NSFW DNI !!!!!!!!!!!!

i’m full of so much love and emotion i sometimes genuinely forget it’s not normal to say i love u to people ur not close to

if i had a boyfriend id put an airtag on him

university is genuinely a “try not to kill urself whilst we do everything in our power to make ur life extremely hard ” simulator

someone encourage me to take my antibiotics i rlly don’t fucking wanna

wait guys i realised i don’t give a fuck and i’m actually completely fine

ugh i wish i had more local friends i wanna do some tom foolery ☹️☹️☹️

btw they were painful bc they got infected LMAOOOOO,

in 10 years people won’t ask “how many hours did u work?” or “what job did you have” but what they will ask, “why did u fumble this baddie who wanted nothing more than to love you ?” lock in bro

how is it hard to communicate ?? genuinely?? if u love someone don’t u naturally want talk to them ??? i’m so so fucking confused??? how r u terrible at reassurance?? why would u not wanna ease ur partners worries? AM I FUCKING STUPID!! HOW IS IT THIS HARD

honestly fuck him, bc he knows how hard breakups on me, he knows i barely survived the last one & that’s why i was so afraid of putting myself back out there bc when he leaves- which i knew he would & he did- i wouldn’t be able to cope with the pain & i was fucking right

acc can’t believe he just threw me away like im nothing, OK! awesome!

lowk wait he sounds like the avoidant not me

making excuses tryna understand a guy who genuinely never did ts to me

he’s like “i’m 25 but ive only been w one person.” bro I’m 20 & I’ve only had one long term relationship too?? ? like what’s ur point, I’m not experienced either?? i matured early & watched my parents marriage fail, watched people give up on me, and learnt how to love someone

i feel like this dumbass bullshit excuse of “oh i’m worried about hurting u.” communicate, learn triggers, put effort, reassure. & if you stilll hurt them sometimes, that’s normal, it’s part of a relationship ? ?

sometimes i look at a rlly old couple together n i wonder how many times they’ve hurt each other & had to forgive each other, and how much they had to not give up on each other to get to where they are now

i genuinely don’t want to sleep bc if i do ill wake up again & it’ll hit me like a wave & i’ll relive the same agony omg pls pls pls pls kill me pls