I believe in everything. Nothing is sacred. I believe in nothing. Everything is sacred.
Rocky Mountains
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Hey, @HeidiPriebe1 and I are running a writer's retreat just after the New Year. We'll talk about Zen, creativity, and maintaining the discipline and structure needed to keep a daily writing practice.
We'd love to have you!
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Shiva Tantra was very clear about getting your shit together in mundane ways if you want to take a serious run at awakening. Big part of the appeal to me.
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Do not ignore your anxieties.
Instead, look so deeply into the energy they are constructed from that it reveals itself to be a luminous empty bliss that is formed of the same fundamental stuff as awe, wonder and excitement.
The bigger the anxiety the bigger the pay off.
So, if you want to get super high, look deeply into the eyes of your fear of death.
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We are approaching the winter solstice, so I should probably share my suicide season post for gun owners
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I think everyone’s lost the plot with dating tbh
You’re looking for home. That’s the only point of any of it. A flickering hearth, a bountiful table, a passion that will wax and wane as unalarmingly as the moon. Deciding to love a person ideally involves the same simple blend of logic + intuition that goes into choosing a place to live: you have a short list of what you absolutely need, some things that are nice to have, but mostly it comes down to if it feels immediately instinctively NICE.
When you’re paying attention to how you feel that recognition comes pretty quickly imo. People overcomplicate it a lot, mostly by trying to look to others to figure out what they should care about.
Feminism kills me because literally every time we discover a technology that enables women some freedom from the tyranny of nature, we also change society within a generation to make it happen.
Men have never oppressed women. We love you! We're on your team! We always were!
It is 2055. The conversion of the asteroid belt into a massive data center, powered by the Musk Dyson Sphere, has enabled ClaudeGPT to plan the human colonization of Alpha Centauri. The only disease left to be cured is ennui. Google Chrome still can't autofill a credit card
If, instead of ignoring them, you peel off the thought and stay with the feeling, you will eventually arrive at a face-to-face confrontation with your fear of death
On the other side of that is real life
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Look, I'm a former escort AND slut
Men straight up cannot get hard if they think you're not into it
Men hesitate mid-sex if they suspect you so much as winced
I promise my sample size is higher than yours, and no, most men are not into sex a woman doesn't want
I am not here for women who pretend most men are passive-aggressive predators, cuz they're not
Something that seems true about the culture war is that the right has fully internalized the fact that America now has two cultures. The left hasn't, so they haven't figured out how to be liberal and humane toward their opponents, which hamstrings everything that makes them strong
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if you want to first-hand understand how relative happiness is
go on a 10 day silent meditation retreat where you are allowed to do zero things
i have never had so much joy staring at a leaf blowing in the wind lol. and my attention span was actually functioning
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Before stepping into the ring, Cus D’Amato would repeat to Mike Tyson that you don’t exist, only the task exists.
The moment you internalize what this really means, all self-doubt simply ceases to exist, because there’s no longer a self to doubt.
What’s left is total immersion in the task, which is what the flow state actually is, where there’s no “you” left to interfere, and action arises by itself, like second nature, faster than conscious thought, through the sheer genius of your unconscious mind.
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Forget the hard jhana vs soft jhana debate…
Who up doing Loathsome Corpse Jhanas?👇
Also, Billy is a great depiction of someone we'd call "sociopathic" but not, I think, personality disordered. In the culture he's from, he's behaving in a rational and defensible, even moral way, even though it looks narcissistic and awful from the outside. He is clearly selfish and controlling and also clearly a caring, protective husband and father who is responding badly to stress that Nathan is introducing with his own Oedipal shit. I did not like Billy at all but I found him more sympathetic than Nathan, if less than Liz.
It is perhaps news to a lot of people watching that "narcissists" and "psychopaths" are human beings with rich, infinite interiority, just like everyone else! Elizabeth's personality is organized around dissociation, which makes her "autistic," in the current colloquial sense, not the proper medical understanding of it, and she is clearly "personality disordered", if you consider BPD a PD at all (let's not litigate this here.) She has the pseudo-hysterical dissociative relationship to psychopathy that you often see in trauma victims (pathological lying, in particular, is common in this set of people.)
In order to have a stable personality, she has to conform to a rigid set of orientations that bends her about 15 degrees against the flow of reality. In order to conform to those orientations, she has to pretend that things in reality aren't connected, which actually are (this is dis-sociation properly understood.) So when she's speaking, I think what she's doing is intuiting at an almost superhuman level what the other person wants her to be, and then becoming that, and fully believing in the moment that she is in fact that. It could also be that in the moment that she's defending herself, she also fully believes that she's innocent, even if a part of her remains aware of it under the surface.
The sheer volume of chirality in her facial expression - the constant mask of fear that lies under the supernormative transparency, the kindness of her giant eyes juxtaposed with the searching, strategic, hunter's precision, the frozen smile that stays in place when tears are streaming down her face - this is a person who absolutely can not allow herself to come in contact with what is happening internally, or she will fall into the disconnected pieces that actually make her up.
I could write a thesis on this movie. Really fun and fantastic, disturbing all throughout but utterly fascinating. Oscar-worthy for sure.
Much more to say but don't want to spoil it if people haven't seen it. The film is ostensibly about Liz Holmes but it's just as much about two men competing in her bizarre psychosexual reality distortion field. And only Nathan is aware of it, and there's no way to know whether he is engineering and manipulating it for profit - it very much seems that way toward the end.
They make a huge deal about Billy controlling Liz's image and whether or not Billy will profit from the documentary, when Nathan and Amanda are right there controlling everyone's image and profiting from the documentary
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A girl just said she tried to get rejected 1000 times in 2025 and ended up being cast in plays, winning pageants, securing hella paid brand deals, and appearing in commercials.This is your sign to chase rejection to the point of "accidental" success. You'll be surprised.
