deep dive ⸝⸝ ruv #9 ⋆.🍀

All these hardships are meant to strengthen that person's heart, cultivate their patience, and help them develop abilities they never knew they had before." I like this sentiment."

It is a little heartbreaking, though, that we live in a world where kind people are the ones who end up getting hurt. But if this is a world where I have to step on others just to get a little closer to the sky, then I think I'd rather be someone who admires it from a distance.

But honestly, people who do bad things eventually get what’s coming to them haha

watching myself repeat the same thing over and over is upsetting. But then I really feel thankful for cozies and choice. Cozy, you have to meet good people. Don't trust just anyone, alright? But I'll still keep singing. Somehow I just can't give that up no matter what haha

I also worry a lot about how I'm supposed to live my life going forward But I feel like I always end up telling myself to just let go. That this is just how life is, that this is simply how we go through life. I thought I'd grow stronger and not get hurt again, and--

I lost the ability to trust people. And then it's an endless circle of worrying if seeing me like that causes pain for cozies or the people who love me. A choice I make for my own happiness can cause pain for someone else. I often find myself stuck with this conflict haha.

But because of that, I've been betrayed and hurt. Sometimes people take advantage of the sincerity with which I give them my heart. And somewhere along the way, I feel like the only thing I've really learned is how to close my heart off more and more.