I am more than what the media portrays me. This is, of course, true with all figures in the public eye. I have done plenty of non-rage work. That's not what gets the attention. I am not engagement farming man... I gave that up along with much of my anger... now I am fighting depression. I was ready to move onto other things when Nick flew apart. I have passed on the information to the press. The silence surrounding Amy Wilkinson's death is deafening. Her parents are merely scattering her ashes in the blueberry field. No memorial. Her friends are frustrated by that. It's like Amy just stopped existing... almost never existed. This is the way it feels. Nick took advantage of us all. He had a way of charming people... people need heroes. I helped him become one. I didn't know what I helped create. A narcissistic serail womanizer and generally abusive man. It's all real... in all of its sordid detail. Nick Blanchard is totally dark on this... not even an acknowledgment of her death. That begs many questions... and no one is providing answers.