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Founder @fieldmeditation | Faculty @CUBoulder | Embodied Presence | Embrace Complexity |

Boulder, CO
Joined October 2009
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Learn Dzogchen with four experienced practitioners and scholars. Most spiritual practices still point toward future attainment: something must change before we are fully present. Dzogchen introduces a path with radical experiential implications -> Link in 🧵
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Inspired by @peduarte sharing street photos, so here are some from my travels.
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This week, Bruce Tift is doing a guest spot at The Field, and I’m opening the Q&A to the community. You can sign up for the guest appearance here: luma.com/4jd8edo5 Sunday, November 15 10:00–11:30 AM MST Bruce wrote the stellar book Already Free, has been a psychotherapist in private practice since 1979, and taught at Naropa University for twenty-five years. He has practiced Vajrayana Buddhism for more than forty years and studied with Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche.
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Contraction was childhood self-care. If relaxing was dangerous, we protected ourselves by staying contracted. Relaxation, presence and embodiment became associated with danger. Tolerance for mystery is built slowly, like reps at the gym & we should expect it to fatigue.
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Many latches start as useful, then outlive this usefulness (cf @techgnostic's talk/discussion); The body may respond to a strong prediction error by reflexively latching; under dangerous uncertainty the body locks a "known-safe" pattern into tissue. This is a very useful capacity because it's very quick & targeted, and can massively shift behavior/computation in a reliable way. Even after the acute danger passes, the body may keep the latch depending on how serious the danger was and whether there could be similar situations in the future. Slowly, this pattern is consolidated into neural weights (LTP) and the latch is less needed to maintain safety. But the body may hang on to it regardless, because (1) memory is seen as default-valuable, and (2) it's easy to offer evidence of danger but hard to offer evidence of safety. Sort of like a bonsai tree that was tied into a specific shape, which then slowly grew to be that shape naturally, but still has its ties on. After you build yourself (with tension), the work becomes relaxing into your creation (by releasing tension). They're each hard in a very different way. Latches reduce nervous system dimensionality / degrees of freedom, and that can actually be good, because we start with extremely high dimensionality (similar to an unconfigured FPGA). Babies are very unlatched creatures and it's probably a fantastic thing to be a baby. But they're not very predictive or predictable. Latches are necessary to make nervous systems useful. It's just the epistemological & affordance structure of the situation often leads us to go overboard. There are also pathological latches, like in Reynaud's syndrome. Strict malfunctions of this system. This can be e.g. a matter of energy production (it takes energy to relax muscle) or cellular stability (muscle spasms). One big hope of vasocomp is that many cognitive, emotional, & phenomenological problems can be grounded in muscle physiology and addressed directly. "What sorts of phenomenological unpleasantness are due to muscle microspasm?" -- hard to say at this point, but not zero. In the future, we'll need a science of "latch interpretability" -- something like LLM mechanistic interpretability but for latches. Not only a map of where your latches are, but what each one is doing -- what patterns it's stabilizing vs blocking, what classes of events might have triggered it, which latches are (still) doing important things vs which are safe to open. teapawt.net/johnsonmxe/status/1873…
Thinking about trauma & latches — I think there are several different kinds of ‘shapes’ that can get stuck (latched) in our nervous systems, but I think most of them at least rhyme with this: You’re out on a walk in the jungle with your friends, and you step on a snake. It bites you; this really hurts. You roll around in pain, fade to black, and wake up in a hospital. The body vows: “that was really awful. I will never let that happen again.” Your body’s response is to latch shards of snake-perception into your nervous system. Next time you’re walking in the jungle, you often mistake sticks, roots, & shadows for snakes. But you will be ready for the snake when it comes. By latching shards of snake-perception, you preload the context (set the Bayesian priors) so it loads much more readily But due to the nature of perception, trauma-latching goes further: not only are you jumpy about *seeing* snakes, but your body will try to latch affordances for *dealing with* the snake. Perception is not impersonal; every perception includes affordances for interaction, i.e. ”what can I do to x” and “what can x do to me”? (Wilson et al; big thanks to my friend Warren for the pointer). So the trauma response latches both fragments of the feeling of the snake biting your leg, and (at least for many men) fragments of the feeling of kicking the snake. Now if you trip over a snake *or* a stick, you are going to kick the living daylights out of it Humans are social animals and many of our salient threats and accompanying traumas are social — we can extrapolate this basic “frozen shards of perception+affordances” pattern to e.g. all the conflicts and attachment trauma we had when we were too young to defend ourselves (physically, emotionally, socially). An added complication is that the logic of how to identify these bad situations, and how to deal with them, will be latched shards of how we perceived the world when we were small. Which are probably not ideal. To be human is to navigate the world with this system, and navigate the second-order effects of this system A compelling aspect of this model (I think @jonnym1ller is calling this “latch theory”, which I really like) is that these latches are concrete physical things. They are discrete, localized, computationally significant, measurable, and openable (See my “research context” note in this thread for papers/links)
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This is where the post-panel rabbit hole went. From somatic unclenching to @johnsonmxe’s latch theory and Nirodha Samāpatti. Here’s the recap of ‘What Does it Mean to Unclench’ with @jonnym1ller and @OortCloudAtlas: speakers.thefield.us/unclenc…
RE: unclenching, just thinking about the possible connections between Nirodha Samapatti and @johnsonmxe 's latch theory. A possible explanation for why being "checked out" for so long (at least a half hour) might have such a profound effect on being—i.e. it allows time for these latches to release. @DelsonArmstrong, @RubenLaukkonen, @danielmingram, and others, anything there for you?
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Recap of our symposium ‘What Does it Mean to Unclench’ with @jonnym1ller and @OortCloudAtlas is live. The threads are running—@OortCloudAtlas is thinking through Nirodha Samāpatti and @johnsonmxe’s latch theory: does prolonged cessation allow the time needed for these latches to finally release? Dive in here: speakers.thefield.us/unclenc…
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Peter McEwen retweeted
Hey! I'm looking to join a high-velocity team in SF that works toward human flourishing and civilizational progress Missions that excite me most: thoughtfully accelerating science with AI, making the transition to powerful AI go well, and scaling inner work Short page on who I am and what I've done In SF until Nov 6, grateful for any intros 🫶 thorge.xyz/next
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Discussing @jonnym1ller’s provocative essay with @OortCloudAtlas tomorrow: howtounclench.com/ Please join us for Friday’s discussion. Should be a hoot!
very much looking forward to this three-way unclenching exploration tomorrow
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Peter McEwen retweeted
Like Imperial's psychedelic research centre, through philanthropic support I'd love to be able to scale the Breathwork Lab into a Centre of Excellence @BSMSMedSchool (like the Sussex Centre for Consciousness Science founded by @anilkseth). If this is you, give me a shout!
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Peter McEwen retweeted
Exciting! Tara at AoA is underrated. I had a surprisingly great coaching session with her in Jan 2025. Helped on a few levels: the content (early relationship fears), an emotional blindspot (how much I blocked joy), and her approach (more teachable than Joe's imo)
I’ll be talking with Tara Howley, co-founder of @artofaccomp, for a free live event. We’ll discuss the interplay between temporary relief, insight, and integration. Curious: what subjects and questions would intrigue you? I’d appreciate your help! @FU_joehudson
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I’ll be talking with Tara Howley, co-founder of @artofaccomp, for a free live event. We’ll discuss the interplay between temporary relief, insight, and integration. Curious: what subjects and questions would intrigue you? I’d appreciate your help! @FU_joehudson
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Bruce Tift has taught in every course we’ve offered at The Field, and we’re now midway through the Everyday Awakening course. Raise your hand if you’d like to attend the next class he teaches. If there’s interest, I’ll open it to the public. Huzzah!
from bruce tift "already free"
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through the graveyard the autumn wind passes a deeper chill Basho
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Peter McEwen retweeted
Join @jonnym1ller, @OortCloudAtlas, and me for an exploration and discussion of Jonny’s hit essay “How to Unclench.” Expect perspectives from nervous system practice, nondual meditation, Tibetan yoga, and developmental psychology. Nov 6 @ 2pm PT Links in 🧵
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sleeping late an autumn morning with nowhere to hurry Basho
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What’s left.
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This looks great. Oshan is a patient and engaging conversationalist. I’m excited to tune in!
Trailer for my podcast series on transformative meditation experiences is up. The rise of mindfulness told the story of how meditation soothes the mind. Pivot Points tells the story of how meditation begins to transform it. Supported by @wakingup. More: pivotpoints.xyz
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Outdoor contemplation and asana can be so romantic. Can fill me with longing.
Mountains, fog, vibrant ochres meet me for morning practice. 🥹
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Mountains, fog, vibrant ochres meet me for morning practice. 🥹
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Peter McEwen retweeted
“I know that this really helps me. I’m just going to do something different.” “I found that this works best for me, but I’m really looking forward to doing this other thing instead.” Instead of doing the slow patient work that actually does the trick, I’m going to pursue a dopamine hit. I want to avoid actual change and growth, while appearing to work on change and growth.
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